Monday, May 23, 2005

Being Home

I really hate it here. My father starves me. I have no money. He doesn't help me. He won't fix my car so that I can get a job. He makes me sick. I feel sick. I am depressed. I am lonely. I am hungry. I absolutely hate it here.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

End of the Year

Well the end of the school year has come. I am not happy about it but hey, what can I do. I am dreading the fact that I have to go back home to a stressful situation. My father doesn't make life any easier. His priorities are really not in order. I am so ready to move out and be on my own. But I made some stupid mistakes with my credit...for any of you reading this if you have any information about credit, please pass it on...I'm desperate!!! I guess sometimes we have to suffer through the bad to get to the good...but I am so tired of suffering. The only thing I have to look forward to is graduation in December. But the only thing I am worried about now is where I will be staying....if my prayers were answered about returning to school, maybe they will be answered about me having a place to stay during the school year and after.....all I can do is hope and pray.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

A Wunderful Day!!

I've always heard of miracles happening, but I never thought one could happen to me. Today I just found out that I can continue my education, I will just be a part-time student. I can't even describe the feeling that came over me when the financial advisor told me that everything would be payed for with some to spare. Today was like the best day of my college career. I now feel that there is some kind of hope, like I'm no longer walled in....I have that window of opportunity. Nothing can stop me now. I am determined to remain steadfast and focused, now more than ever. The words "you'll never have anything" that came from my mother are now obsolete. I know that I can be somebody. I have too many positive people to remind me of that. Nothing can stand in my way.

P.S. Mrs. Finnegan, I'll always remember you...you mean so much to me. God bless you and I wish you much success in your new job.