Wednesday, August 31, 2005

What's Up With Me?

I don't know what's going on with me. Lately I have been having weird thoughts. Thoughts that are making me question my entire life...and sexuality. For a while now I have been having thoughts of being with girls. And when I say "being"....I mean the whole package. Dating and having sex. Its like this constant growing urge inside of me and I don't know what I should do. I mean...I've been with a girl why is this coming up again? Is it because I have been hurt by men so much that I feel that a woman could treat me better? I really don't know what's up with me. I wish I had the answer cause I am so confused. Don't get me wrong...I love a good strong man...but there is something about being with a woman I just can't shake. Maybe there will be an answer to this perplexing situation soon....but until then...all I can do is hope that this urge does not totally consume me.


May God bless the individuals who are distraught and dealing with the recent mass destruction of hurricane Katrina....and please something about the oil crisis....Amen.

School Daze

The semester is finally here and I am so glad to be back in school. I cannot believe that in a few months time I will be graduating and entering the real world only to subject myself to four more years of school the coming fall (hopefully!). Nothing out of the ordinary has happened much except that I am commuting now and missing out on the mundane things that happen around this small campus. It seems like when I was a residence on campus, things rarely happened. Now all of a sudden there is so much to do (Aaaargh!!). There are many people here but I haven't the time to get to know them all. I am still hanging with my very good friend from Africa. To tell you the truth, he is the only person I really care about at this school, which is filled with simple minded individuals. Well, the first week of school was pretty good, and I hope that the falling weeks will be even better.